really...

so, fran and i (and you guys following along at home), have been discussing the method, message and motives for the past week or so.  

i must say, i have been thinking about this a lot.  it is bothering me!!  then, saturday, i had some friends in town.  and i sent out a terrible message!  i was pretty hateful, and  i just am not going into detail about the whole weekend.  what made it even more terrible, was that  i can not stop thinking about this topic of message/motive.  everything i read, it pops up!  when i am watching something, the topic is brought to my mind.  when i am playing with the kids or NOT playing with the kids, the message pops into my head.

then i read this from the catalyst website.  here is an excerpt from the article...

As Christians in America, we often complain about how antagonistic people are toward Christ. Personally, I'm not sure that Americans are really rejecting Christ.  Maybe they just haven't seen Him.  

Try to be COMPLETELY honest with yourself right now.  Is the following true of you?

You passionately love Jesus, but you don't really want to be like Him.  You admire His humility, but you don't want to be THAT humble.  You think it's beautiful that He washed the feet of the disciples, but that's not exactly the direction your life is headed.  You're thankful He was spit upon and abused, but you would never let that happen to you.  You praise Him for loving you enough to suffer during His whole time on earth, but you're going to do everything within your power to make sure you enjoy your time down here.

In short: You think He's a great Savior, but not a great role model.

Francis Chan wrote that.  you should read the whole article to get the full jist of what he is talking about.  but this hit me.  i'm not sure what to do with this or how to respond to it.  this is going to take some evaluation and processing...